have i really only been home for two and a half weeks? have i really only been training staff for five days? these things don't seem possible.

tomorrow i'm going to my first pride festival (with my aunt and her UU group). it's a little exciting and a little scary at the same time.

i'm going to go clean the place where i stuck a stick into my leg yesterday so i can stop forgetting and putting my arm on it. yuck. (this is not as gross as it sounds, i promise.)

and i'm still very tired.

I'm so very tired.

Camp is overwhelming. I am directing two sessions of day camp, which I learned after telling my boss I'd heard rumors of me directing and her telling me, "no, no, no... you're just in charge of these two, they have no director". Um - hello - THAT MEANS I'M DIRECTING THEM!!! She also keeps giving me supervisory/administrative duties, but hasn't told the staff that my position is any different than theirs... so I have responsibility with no authority or direction right now. I talked to her after training today, but I don't know how much effect it had.

I have to go to bed now. Please pray for me.

So my friend Beasley called me tonight. (that's her camp name, not her real name). Seems that not only is our boss leaving in a few weeks (I found this out yesterday, she heard through the grapevine tonight), but day camp is in chaos. Go figure! I love Joan, but you really shouldn't put a woman who can't organize one day camp well in charge of organizing all of them. Anyway... Beasley heard from Charlotte, who's day camp coordinator, that I was directing the last three sessions of day camp (the ones that she and Charlotte aren't directing). I hope this is false, because that's the first I've heard of it... though part of me hopes it's true, because then Beasley will help and the two of us will do three fantastic day camps.

You'd think people would tell us things like who's working our camps and when they are and where they are - and oh, if we've been assigned to direct them - but no. No. Not with the Girl Scouts of Lake Erie Council.

I love my job.

I have very little to say tonight. I saw Harry Potter and it was good.

Also, while I still can't open my comments, I have figured out how to get to the comment manager on haloscan and read my comments. So comment away!!!

To the smartass who commented on my last post:

I can't access my comments. Therefore, I can't access your reply to my question. So if it was anything other than "no"... please repeat in a more useful way. Thank you.

For lack of anything I'd rather be doing:

Countdown: borrowed from Marisa's livejournal

10 bands you've been listening to a lot lately:

We'll take "a lot" generously, given the status of the first one...

1. Indigo Girls
2. Catie Curtis
3. Peter, Paul, & Mary
4. Dar Williams

ok, how about "at all" recently - as in, they're on the ECM CD.

5. Cris Williamson
6. Simon & Garfunkel
7. James Taylor
8. Carole King
9. Cat Stevens
10. Billy Joel

9 things you look forward to:

1. camp starting
2. school starting (yes, I know I'm a nerd)
3. visiting St Louis
4. other people posting new entries in their blogs
5. getting good email
6. seeing Harry Potter tomorrow
7. putting up a clean shower curtain here after my brother leaves for the summer
8. being done putting stuff away
9. Mark & Tom's ordination saturday

8 things you like to wear:

1. my torn jeans
2. my long-sleeved indigo girls shirt
3. my sandals
4. my 1991 camp t-shirt
5. hippie skirts
6. my new black&white dress
7. tank tops
8. my electric blue velour "yoga pants"

7 things that annoy you:

1. the thing that pops up on this computer every ten minutes asking if i want to block viewmgr.exe from accessing the internet
2. distance
3. stupidity
4. people who think president bush is doing a great job
5. people who don't use turn signals responsibly
6. my mother calling the ellen degeneres show "this cruddy tv"
7. people telling me that i should listen to the indigo girls less

6 things you say most days:

1. "you should" do such and such (trying to stop that one)
2. bah!
3. what are we doing for dinner?
4. I'm waiting to hear from Joan about that.
5. I miss St Louis.
6. how should I know?

5 things you do every day:

1. check my email
2. eat
3. bemoan the state of my bedroom floor
4. read SOMETHING in the newspaper
5. wonder about some major detail about camp starting

4 people you want to spend more time with:

1. Kristian
2. Rory
3. Ryan
4. Mike

(the above is a non-hierarchical list which is limited to four only because the countdown thing tells me to and should not be taken as offensive or hurtful by any parties not listed thereupon or dissatisfied with their position thereupon)

3 movies you could watch over and over again:

1. Kissing Jessica Stein
2. Now and Then
3. Sound of Music

2 of your favorite songs at the moment:

1. Wood Song
2. Free in You

(both by the indigo girls, of course)

1 person you could spend the rest of your life with:

1. there are probably a number in different ways... but I don't think that's what's meant here... so out of protest against the extreme unclarity of the question, i respectfully abstain.

We now return you to your regularly scheduled lives. Thank you.

and seriously, if anyone has any advice on how to get to my comments... email me. I can open other people's blog comments, and other people seem to be able to open mine... but I can't read them!

Does anyone know why I can't access my comments?

So I actually only had to teach a dozen girls, and since they were nearly all teenagers, it went fine. I made them do all the boring lecture part about how to do things correctly and then I let them play. They had fun.

Tomorrow I will go out with Kiery and we will play with the boats ourselves. This will be lots of fun and give me a chance to practice my solo canoeing. I wish to be confident enough in my solo paddling to teach by my self from a solo canoe, preferably by next week.

Today, however, I meet my new bishop for the first time. I do not think this will be too nervewracking, because I have seen him in public before and have heard about him, and he seems to be quite friendly and personable. Case in point: I went to the Cleveland area "conversations with the bishop" night last week and was the reporter from our group, and after everything was over, I passed Bishop Hollingsworth and he said "thanks, you did a great job". This makes me happy.

I do not relish the idea of wearing a suit today, when it will be close to 90 outside. I also do not see an alternative. I do however get to wear a skirt instead of pants.

This post is getting long. I'll stop now.

Yes, Marisa, I am now home.

I was supposed to work today and tomorrow all day, but joan, my boss, is sick and so we've been canceled. Or cancelled, whichever you prefer. At least I think tomorrow is cancel(l)ed as well. I suspect this is related to joan's decision to recover from pneumonia at work a few weeks ago. I do teach a canoeing session tomorrow night regardless, and it looks like I'll probably be teaching 16 girls alone. This makes me nervous, since I haven't canoed or taught canoeing since last August, and I can't supervise that many girls on the water at once without another instructor there anyway. At least I don't think I can. These are the things I have to re-remember each summer.

In any case, while I'm home now, the temptation to turn around and head back to St Louis is very great. I actually recited to myself why it would be a bad idea on Tuesday night lying in bed, because at that point my stuff was all still packed and could easily have been returned to my car.

I won't actually try to move back to St Louis this summer, but I do miss everyone.